Falling (Fading Series) Page 4

  “See ya.”

  Time passes as I try working on the inventory supply sheet that I need to get in to our liquor distributor, but my mind is elsewhere. I really need to call Gina and tell her it’s over.

  A clatter outside snaps me out of my thoughts. I look down at my watch to see it’s nearing one in the morning. Shit. When I start packing my things up to head home, I hear more commotion from outside. I shake my head, knowing it’s probably just some drunk guys heading back home from a party. People are always cutting through the back alley.

  I start locking everything up and make my way downstairs to the back door. “Crap,” I mutter to myself, realizing I left my cell in my office. Walking back up the stairs to my office, I grab my phone off my desk.

  I hear screaming.

  A girl screaming.

  “Fuck!”

  Bolting out of my office, I haul ass downstairs to the back door and out to the small employee parking lot in the alley.

  “God, please! Stop!” a girl shrieks.

  Before my mind can process what I’m seeing—naked girl, guy’s hand between her legs, girl thrashing, screaming—the bastard smashes his fist into her face.

  Adrenaline fires through my body, and I run. Yanking the guy off her, I start slamming my fist into his face over and over. I completely lose control of myself and relentlessly whale on him. I’m gone. My knuckles start to burn as the flesh begins to split open. He manages to get a few swift hits to my jaw and ribs, which allows him a quick moment to work out of my grip and flee.

  Before I can charge after the guy, I catch a glimpse of the girl. It doesn’t take but a second for me to refocus. She lies there, unconscious, bare, with her clothes ripped off of her. My stomach convulses at the image before me. I slowly approach her—scared—and kneel down next to her. Terrified to touch her, I take off my shirt and cover her naked, battered body. Her face is covered in blood and dirt, skin scraped off on one side and the other is already swelling from where the fucker’s fist landed. Her knees are ripped open and covered in gravel. The blood between her thighs tells me exactly what that piece of shit did to her. My heart thuds hard in my chest, and my gut is in knots.

  I pat my pockets for my cell, but it’s not on me. I must have dropped it as I ran out here. Not wanting to leave her, I look around and spot her purse. I lean over and grab it in search of her phone. When I find it, I swipe the screen and dial 911.

  My voice is shaky as I try to talk to the dispatcher. My thoughts are all over the place, and I stumble as I try to answer all of her questions. When she tells me that the police and EMTs are on their way, we disconnect. I slip the phone back into her gold purse and slowly zip it up as I stare at her. I don’t want to look, but I can’t stop.

  As I sit next to her, she lies there, breathing peacefully. Whatever is running through her head right now has to be a million times better than the hell she’s going to wake up to.

  What the fuck just happened? I watch her. I don’t know what else to do. She is so small, and when I look at her tiny hands, her nails are shredded. Shit. She fought. She had to have fought hard. The thought nearly makes me vomit, and when I shift my eyes away from her hands, I notice a little tattoo. An outline of a heart—simple black ink—on her lower hip that’s still exposed. Sliding the shirt over a little to cover it, I finally hear the sirens in the distance.

  “Thank God,” I whisper.

  The sound grows louder the closer they get, and when the red and blue lights strobe across the parking lot, I reluctantly stand to my feet, but don’t move away from her until the EMTs approach.

  “Sir, can you step over here?” an officer asks.

  We walk over to the rear of his vehicle. He pulls out a clipboard from the car and opens the top of it, retrieving a few forms.

  “I need to get your statement,” he says while he organizes the papers under the clip. “You’re the one that called 911, correct?”

  “Yes, sir,” I answer before turning my head to see them sliding the girl onto a backboard, strapping her down. She’s now covered in a large blanket, and it’s at this moment that I feel. Pain. Sadness. Anguish. It wells up and floods my eyes. I don’t even know this girl, but I hurt for her.

  “Where are they taking her?” I ask the officer.

  “You know her?”

  “No.” I turn back and watch as they slide her into the back of the ambulance. Another EMT is collecting the scraps of her clothes that remain on the ground.

  “Can you tell me what happened?” the officer asks.

  “I don’t know,” I mumble. I can’t seem to get my head straight. What just happened?

  “Take your time. It’s important that we get a detailed account of everything that occurred. Everything you saw.”

  “Is she gonna be okay?” I ask as the ambulance drives off.

  “Do you need to sit down, sir?” I faintly hear the officer as he speaks. Pressure on my arm shifts my focus when I realize he has his hand on me, guiding me to sit in the front passenger seat of his vehicle. The door shuts, and I lean my head back against the seat. I watch him walk in slow motion around the front of the car. He sits in the driver’s seat next to me.

  “Start from the beginning.”

  “He raped her,” I choke out.

  “My God.”

  “He beat the shit out of her, Mom. I can’t close my eyes without seeing it,” I tell her. “I couldn’t sleep at all last night. I just laid in my bed, replaying it over and over.”

  “Is she okay?”

  “I don’t know. They wouldn’t tell me anything. It feels weird . . . to see that and not know.”

  “Are you okay?”

  “How am I supposed to answer that? What do I say?”

  “Say how you feel,” she tells me with worry and concern.

  “I feel sick. What he did to her . . . what I saw . . .”

  “I hate that I’m not there.”

  “It’s okay, Mom. I don’t really wanna talk anymore; I just needed to tell you. I needed to tell someone.”

  “I’m so sorry that you had to see something like that,” she says.

  I’ve seen so much shit in my life. Too much to ever forget. You can’t rid your mind of images that burn themselves into who you are. I’ve had to watch my mother getting the life knocked out of her at the hands of my father more times than I ever want to remember. But I also have her sounds etched in me. Her painful, pleading screams.

  And now . . . now I have this girl. This unknown. A Jane Doe. Blanks that will never be filled.

  “I’m so sorry I couldn’t protect you better,” I confess.

  Guilt.

  “Ryan, don’t.”

  The knot in my throat makes my words painful to say, but I force them out. My confession. “I was right there. I heard the noise out back. If only I would have gone out there. Fuck, why didn’t I go out there sooner?”

  “How could you have known?”

  “I could have stopped it. Prevented it. But instead, I ignored it.” The whole time I knew there was someone back there, and I ignored it. I sat in my office while that girl fought so hard she had no nails left. “What have I done?” I breathe out, suddenly feeling the weight of the responsibility I now hold.

  “You didn’t do anything,” she tries assuring me.

  She’s right. I didn’t do anything. Nothing. I close my eyes, and I see it. The blood between her legs. The image I know will forever be with me. I toss the phone aside and rush to the bathroom, vomiting. Expelling the toxins, but not the images. Those remain.

  Needing to move, needing to get out of the house, I drive up to work. I park out front and head straight to my office, shutting the door behind me. Fuck. Why am I here?

  There’s a knock on the door, and when I say, “Come in,” Max walks in.

  “Everything all right, boss?”

  “Shut the door,” I tell him, and he does.

  “What’s going on?”

  I didn’t get any sleep last night, and
I feel like shit. I know I look it, and by the expression on his face, I know he sees it.

  Folding my hands, I lean forward on my desk. “Something really fucked up happened here last night after you left.”

  He walks over and takes a seat in the chair.

  “A girl was raped out back,” I tell him.

  “Christ,” he breathes as he drops his head.

  I don’t say anything else. I’m not sure I can. We both sit there in silence as seconds pass by.

  I finally speak the words that have me so fucked up. “I saw her.”

  “The girl?”

  “I heard her screaming, and when I went out there, he was on her.” I spin around in my chair and stare out the window that overlooks the street in front of the bar as it rains.

  “I want cameras installed back there,” I tell him.

  “I’m on it,” he responds. “You okay?”

  Still facing the window, I admit, “I don’t know, man. That shit was fucked up.”

  “Did the police come?”

  When I turn back around to face him, I answer, “Yeah. I gave my statement, and they took her to the hospital.”

  “Was she okay?”

  “I don’t know. He beat her pretty badly. She was unconscious.”

  “And the guy?”

  “Don’t know. I had him for a moment, but I couldn’t keep him in my grip. I couldn’t leave the girl though, so he fled.” I take a minute before telling him, “I don’t want the girls walking to their cars alone. You and Chase need to be with them when they leave. Got it?”

  “Of course.” He takes a moment before asking, “You sure you want to be up here?”

  Looking up at him, I let him know, “I can’t be home. I need a distraction.”

  “I hear ya,” he says then switches the topic, which I’m thankful for. “I talked with Chase earlier today, and he says he knows of a band that’s gotten pretty popular lately. If you’re tied up, I can get Michael to see about getting them booked for Saturday.”

  “Nah, I’ll take care of it. Is he here?”

  “Yeah, I’ll send him up,” he says as he stands and starts walking out. When he gets to the door, he turns back and says, “I’m here, man. If you ever . . .”

  “Thanks.” His friendship is genuine. It always has been. I might not be a man of many words, but I stop him before he walks out and tell him, “I really appreciate it,” because I feel like he should know.

  He gives a nod, accepting my words, and turns to head downstairs.

  I spend the next few hours reviewing the financials and going over payroll. It’s Michael’s responsibility, but I absorb myself in it for the distraction. I speak with Chase, and I am able to contact one of the guys from the band he suggested and get them booked.

  Filing some papers away, I notice the sky darkening. Somehow the day has passed, and I still feel like I’m on autopilot.

  “God, please! Stop!”

  I shake my head, trying to wash out the shrill of her voice. The panic.

  There’s a soft knock on the door, and before I can say anything, it slowly opens.

  “What are you doing here?” I ask when I see Gina step in and close the door behind her.

  This is the last thing I need to deal with right now.

  “I never heard from you last night.”

  “I wasn’t feeling well,” I tell her. “Look, things are getting a little weird, and honestly, I’m just not feeling right about what we have going on.” I should have told her this the other day, but I know that I can’t keep having her come around, thinking that this has any value in it.

  She sits down and questions, “What do you mean?”

  Getting up from my chair, I walk around to the front of my desk and lean back against it in front of her. I need to lay it out there honestly for her so that there isn’t any confusion.

  “I’m starting to feel like what’s going on between us is exactly what I try to avoid. It isn’t working for me, and I’d feel like an ass if I led you to think otherwise.”

  She looks hurt. Proof that she’s feeling too much. She plays it off well though when she says, “Well, it was fun while it lasted, right?”

  I don’t respond as I watch her stand up.

  “Keep my number though,” she says before turning her back to me and walking out.

  I release a deep breath. A failed attempt to make me feel better. Truth is, I’m in a haze. A cloud. My mind is elsewhere—it’s back in the alley. But that girl’s cloud is no doubt thicker and darker than mine right now. Why didn’t I go out there sooner? What if I had?

  “Fuck!” I grit out, slamming the door shut, knowing I’m at fault, that I could have done a lot more if only . . .

  Walking through the back stockroom, I ask Mel, “Hey, have you seen Max or Michael?”

  “Michael left a couple hours ago, and last I saw, Max was out back talking to Traci,” she tells me as she loads her arms with a case of beer, almost dropping it.

  “Here. Give that to me,” I say, taking the heavy case from her. She follows me as I walk out and set the beer on the bar top. The place is starting to fill up. The band that Chase had recommended played here last week and really drew in a crowd. I went ahead and booked them again for tonight, and he wasn’t kidding when he said they were well-known around here.

  I help Mel behind the bar, stocking the beer while she serves customers. When I catch Max heading to the front door, I shout, “Hey, Max!”

  “What’s up?”

  “You seen the guys yet?” I ask.

  “Chasten is here, but I’m not sure about the others. Everything cool?”

  “Yeah, if you see them before I do, tell them I need to talk with them before they go on tonight.”

  “Got it,” he responds as he turns to head out to work the door.

  I need to snag this band while I can. Getting them in a contract will alleviate the hassle of trying to book bands week after week. The guys seem pretty cool from what I got to know of them last week, which wasn’t a whole lot aside from the guitarist, Mark. He stayed late that night, drinking and bullshitting with me and Gavin after he was done playing.

  Gavin tried leeching some chick on him but got a good laugh when he found out that his hard work with the girl went down the shitter when Mark told him he was gay. The look of disappointment, that he wouldn’t have another wingman, was something I selfishly took pleasure in.

  He’s been on my case lately since I ditched him a couple of times this week. I haven’t been in the mood to go out just to find someone to use simply to make myself feel better. Ever since I saw that girl being attacked a couple weeks ago, it feels wrong.

  “You got everything covered, Mel?”

  “Yeah, Ry. I’m good,” she says, and I start making my way to the back.

  I spot Chasten and Mark talking and announce, “Hey, guys, can you get the others and meet me in my office real quick?”

  “Yeah, no problem,” Mark says and then introduces me, “Ryan, this is Jase, the guy I was telling you about.”

  “Jase, man, good to meet you,” I say as I reach out to shake his hand.

  “Yeah, same here,” he responds with a note of hesitation, but I don’t stick around ‘cause I’ve gotta get up to my office to talk with everyone. “I’ll catch up with you later, man.”

  “Sounds good,” he says.

  Once all the guys are in my office, I offer, “What do you guys think about making this gig a steady one?”

  “You serious?” Aiden, the front vocalist, says.

  “Yeah. I’m not gonna bullshit you guys. Finding bands is a bitch, so if you’re in at a ten percent pay increase, all you have to do is sign this simple contract and we’re good.”

  I take the contract and hand it over to Aiden, who reads through it first and confirms, “I’m in,” before handing it over for the rest of the guys to read. When they are all on the same page with the agreement, they sign and call it a deal. Adding them to the payroll takes a load of
stress off my back and simplifies my job even more.

  When they leave to head down, I stay a little while to enter their info into our database. I write a note to Michael about the new payroll and employee additions and toss it on his desk before heading down. The band is just about to start playing when I make my way over to the bar and see Jase.

  “Jase.” I move to stand next to him, leaning my elbows on the bar top. “You ever been here before?”

  “Yeah. This crowd is a bit insane though,” he replies.

  Watching Mel hand him his beer, I tell her, “Don’t bother with a tab, Mel.”

  “Thanks, man,” he says as he turns to me.

  “No problem.”

  The music starts blasting through the bar when I say, “Your guy’s band is fuckin’ popular. They brought in a huge crowd last time they played here as well.”

  He keeps his focus on the stage, not responding, so I leave it and ask, “You go to school together?”

  “Yeah,” he hollers over the music. “We’re in the same major.”

  “And what’s that?”

  “Architecture.”

  “That’s cool,” I say and then turn to yell for Mel to grab me a beer.

  “Ryan! Fuck, man!” I hear Gavin shout with irritation from behind me.

  I turn and question, “What?”

  “That chick you flung on me last night was a fuckin’ psycho.”

  Ignoring his complaint, I turn to Jase and say, “Jase, this is my dick of a friend, Gavin.”

  “What the fuck ever,” Gavin says as he laughs. He looks to Jase and warns, “Watch out for this dipshit, and don’t let him hook you up with anyone. His matchmaking skills suck balls.”

  “Find your own ass, Gav. I’m not your fuckin’ hookup,” I let him know because I’m not into his game tonight.

  “Not anymore. What the hell has happened to you lately?”

  “Nothing. Just sick of wasting my time.”

  I take a swig of my beer while Gavin tells Jase that I’ve been acting like a pussy, so I clip him and say, “Don’t waste your time buddying up with Jase.”

  “Sad. I guess it’s just me trying to get laid, huh?”